Is that the correct word for it? Last night after attending my boys Preston and Presley – “berganti-ganti” with my wife, they decided enough is enough, they just dozed off till 5am in the morning. During that time I was so happy because at last I was able to accompany my Josh to play his favourite pc game, Counterstrike.

We played till 1am! I so love the moment. I seldom spend time with him especially when the twins around. What to do, the twins need more help than Josh. But wait, is it? Every time, myJosh call me “Papa, come help, need E-see-gun!” I just could not go straight to him without putting down Preston or Presley, whoever that time with me. Sometimes, deep in me, I “marah” with the twins for holding me to go to Josh rescue. I only can say, “wait Josh, Papa with adik, wait ok.” I sometimes can’t hold my tears for doing that to Josh. I know he is frustrated with me and sometimes got angry because I did not help him or simply go to sit beside him. Especially when he said, “Papa, see, see, myJosh died already!” then he slammed the mouse. I can only say, “Josh don’t do that. Papa with adik. Papa with Preston(Presley), skijap ok.”

However, last night was different. Actually wife stopped us playing because as I said, 1am already. If not, we could go on and on. Hahaha. Josh shutdown the pc and with a smile said, “Papa, myJosh win, yeah!”. And yes, he knows how to shutdown the pc the correct way. He click the start button on the left, click shutdown on the bottom right, then click ok. he switch off the monitor and the speaker power and go down from his chair. I am so proud of him and what parent not, right.

Later, he asked me, “Papa, nenen hot (hot milk – Dumex dugro!)”. Later, “Papa, tv please”. “Aiiikkk, no more tv Josh. Enough, we go to sleep ok. Papa tired.” So he go onto his bed, like jump on it and ask for his favorite assets, “Papa, limpang (pillow), towel (kain sarung haha).” He just cannot sleep without this two. In fact, we have to bring this every way, OMG.

Anyway, since the twins already sleeping on the other bed with wife, I decided to tug beside Josh. Guess what, he said, “NO Papa. myJosh sleep here. Papa sleep with adik!”.

Alamak. So kesian me, forced to go to the other bed, beside Preston.

I said, “No, Papa want to sleep with myJosh.”

He said, “No, Papa with adik”.

Out from nowhere, my wife laugh, “Itulah, you seldom spend time with him” then laugh.

Aikkk.. I thought she was asleep already. So terpaksalah (with swollen feeling, forced to) sleep with my twins. While Josh adjusting himself, rolling left and right to get comfortable to sleep, I wondered I have made mistake that resulted that situation happened on me. I cannot sleep for I keep thinking of how I wish Josh will hug and sleep on my chest for the whole night to morning. I smiled just thinking about it. I thought I must have been smiling lah.. coz can’t remember now

Oh yessssssssss.. this morning I woke up (wahhh lama tiada tidur begini) … Josh was sleeping with me, ON ME, HUGGING ME, ON MY CHEST!!!. I feel so touched and feel so in love, so so.. dont know what the words already. I look on my left, twins still sleeping and wife missing, must have gone downstairs “cuci kain”. So just cherish the moment, hugged back Josh real tight towards me. So syiok that time. The twins, hahaha.. Presley snoring some more.. yeah that small snoring sound..yep. Preston, as always serious when sleeping. Hahaha.

Wife back and directly said,

“Dear, go “podju” (take bath lah)”.

I said, “Ssshhhhh.. see Josh”.

“Yeah, I know”… then terus (directly) went out the room again. AAaiiikkkk.

To cut thing short because in the thousands words already now, later wife told me she was so jealous to see Josh hugged me. Josh never hugged her already for so long. I asked when he did that. Wife told just after I snored. Hahahaa. Hahaha. So it must have been Josh decided to sleep on me so that I won’t snore so loud. You know, like on my chest, indirectly affected my breathing, my snoring kind of thing. Hahaha. He probably managed to stop my snoring because he slept like that till morning. So syiok lerr… Oh ya, I remembered last night when he wanted to throw “water big” (air besar lah – berak), he hugged my thighs (yeah he still short), and said, “Papa, myJosh sayang Papa”. Alamakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. I am so in love now.

So today, i decided to get him from the auntie, half day jaga only. I want to spend more time with him. I want to spoil him even more. yeah…. what date today? Ok 11 Oct. Marked the day at the calendar. The day I feel loved by Josh and Papa to love Josh. OK, enough of this.. call the auntie and tell her the good news. Good news to her because no need to jaga full time (HAHAHA!) and good news of course for me too. See you all.