Happy or Sad?
Papaadmin March 13th, 2008 | Viewed 736 views
I need to jot down this before I forgot, again. It should be a short one for the blog record. I am not sure how I feel now as at 9am today whether to be happy or sad. I know back at 4am right up to 6am, I was so happy. I felt happy simply because I was awaken with the nicest feeling of love all around me.
Presley ( I think so its him) on my left under my hand with his small leg tried to wrap around my belly and my elder Josh on my right hugging with his right hand and leg around me too – snoring at the same 
I was wrapped in between and could not move. I could not help but to smile and Praise GOD for giving me such wonderful kids. Praise The Lord. I want this feeling to last forever …
However, Life is not always rosy or shall I say, winning-jackpot feeling. Fast forward to present, now at 10am already, I actually am feeling sad because I cannot help wife to stay at home taking care the kids. Our auntie decided to take leave for the day to attend some unavoidable business. Wife got her emergency leave but for me, it is totally no-no from the company. Yes, I feel sad for my wife. I reached the office this morning quite late because need to assist wife here and there before I go. Honestly, at the moment I so so hate my company for making me and my family like this. I hate the feeling that I just could not do anything about it. Obviously, it all comes down to being under financially free (or whatever the appropriate term for it).
Oh dear wife, I am so so sorry. My wish now is just to be at home. Definitely, lunch time I will be at home. Wife just sms to buy milk for the twins. To make matter worse, my son Josh is having fever now. Man, i am sad now. I cannot wait for lunch time. I really cannot…
Due to this, the more reason I have to just go for it with my Internet business and really concentrate on making enough money for me to retire from my current job and just be at home with my kids. Thats’ the objective and I believe I can achieve that. It may not happen by end of this month but I believe I can. I just hate the feeling of not able to just go and attend my kids. Wife the victim here. I am so so sorry dear. 
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March 13th, 2008 at 11:44 am
You are a wonderful husband and father. Your family is really blessed to have you. There is light at the end of the tunnel.. hang in there.
March 13th, 2008 at 11:53 am
ooh dear…this is really painful for you…to not be able to present physically with your loved ones though the mind was so much on them!!
that’s the worst part of being in employment….i can definitely understand that!
hopefully yr wife will udrstd u too…u r just earning a living for them too!
cheer up bro…dun worry be happy!!
March 13th, 2008 at 11:57 am
no wonder mrs.papajoneh is not online. i think time for you to get a maid lah to help at home.. sengsara like that. itupun if can get good maid. Hopefully everything ok lah.
March 14th, 2008 at 12:55 am
You can do it bro…from PP, adsense to affiliate program, you can make enough online cash to support your family…I’m also interested in doing it but I always have the problem to concentrate and have some time spend to do business online…ba bro, sa sukung ko dari belakang dan tepi dan…
March 14th, 2008 at 11:13 am
ok bah kalu ko
…don’t worry dear, I understand 150% 
March 14th, 2008 at 2:12 pm
i think your wife will understand your situation..please don’t feel sad.
and, get well soon Josh!
March 14th, 2008 at 2:45 pm
alamak….dun worry la joneh. I am sure smart wife that if can u will be there but too bad got blocked by some reason. Hope everything is well now.
March 14th, 2008 at 3:04 pm
well….it is good to hear that u are planning to do something on your own. Dont worry la…your wife can understand that. Wish u all the best, Joneh!
March 14th, 2008 at 5:56 pm
Hey buddy, you’re doing a great job as a dad and husband. Just hang in there and things will be better soon
March 16th, 2008 at 9:26 pm
Life’s like that lah PapaJ. I’m sure MamaJ is thankful that you are already helping out as much as you can.
How’s Josh doing now?