Yeah, I pity myself. Other than I am not that self sufficient, I somehow contaminate my not so good luck to my car too.

Yeah, my old car. My old Proton Iswara. I am so proud to be a Malaysian, I will keep supporting them whenever possible. the new Proton Inspira looks delicious, eh? Haha. Well, my trusted, reliable car is still operational but obviously, the age shows. Yeah, you can hear the not-so-nice sound coming from everywhere. Sad but true. Read the rest of this entry »

Stress is my partner. He is always there. He just won’t leave me alone. Yes, I am talking about Stress – is the emotional and physical strain caused by our response to pressure from the outside world. In short, I am tension now!!!

Tension that so many things overdue. All of them need cash to solve it. I just wish I am financially independent and smart. I just wish nothing can affect my family, my kids development and happiness of their future. Yes, I am stress and I’m rambling all this out so they will all go away. I cannot get full sleep because my mind still fully awake thinking about all this. Yes, I am tension. Pressure from the outside world, yes I am. Read the rest of this entry »

Sometimes I thought of things that surely going to make my life a bit interesting that the normal days I am living now. Sometimes, I want to go out there, living in the camp, facing the mountain, feeling the cool breeze. All this I want my wife to be there and three kids too.

I want them to feel the excitement of outdoor living. I was a King Scout before so it is in the blood that I love outdoor. I said I was because I seldom practice the “Be Prepared” logo and probably now lost all the skills too. Nevertheless, I am still very much into any outdoor activities. I sometimes out of nowhere, just open up the tent I bought for RM50 and let the kids enjoy themselves inside it – all in the living room. Hahaha.
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I do not know how many times I think about this .. like thousand times. Still, since it is important, I have to then. Thinking about the coming old crooked days. Future bah.

Currently, not good. Financially I mean. Family life, not bad but can get better if the finance is stable. Career wise, hmm.. what career? I do not have one. So pathetic. Other than savings, Insurance is the next thing. Read the rest of this entry »

What stress can do to you? Well, it can make you become like one of the crazy person. “Jadi orang gila lah” in Malay.

Yes, I am almost like that person. Stress of my working shift. Stress from my project. Stress of not enough money. Why always, the days are many while the money is short??? For the many years I have been working under this same company and do not remember how many times I said to myself, I am going to quit next 3 months. yeah, so many times, I lost count already. People will not believe if I say, I always pokai one, no saving. Pathetic life eh. Well, just for you, it’s true.
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Long time didn’t visit this blog so I thought I just wanna let any of you see how I feel all this while with my kids and wife – during night time.

Happy Family Bedtime.

Michael Joseph Jackson (born August 29, 1958) is an American recording artist, entertainer, and businessman. The seventh child of the Jackson family, he debuted on the professional music scene at the age of 11 as a member of The Jackson 5 and began a solo career in 1971 while still a member of the group. Referred to as the “King of Pop” in subsequent years, five of his solo studio albums have become some of the world’s best-selling records: Off the Wall (1979), Thriller (1982), Bad (1987), Dangerous (1991) and HIStory (1995). Died on June 25, 2009 of a heart attack. [facebook-sign the Memorial]

I am speechless. I am still cannot believe he is gone for real now. All this while, I am just waiting for his comeback and I am still sure, it would be the greatest comeback ever. I was ready for it – even after his long silence in the media. Damn.

This news totally came as a shock. Like heart attack shock to me. Thanks to Hitz.FM for informing us while driving to work. Well, no work for me today. I do not care. No mood. Today I’m going to stay at home listening to all his musics. Damn, I already missing him like he is my wife.

I don’t know know what else to say. He’s the King, The Greatest Ever and I miss him so much already. Shit!!!!!!!!!

* I remember back I even sang his song “We Are The World” with Sabah Chief Minister Datuk Seri Panglima Musa Haji Aman during the Keluarga Bahagia Launch at 1Borneo.

I must have heard that title somewhere in a song lyric. Somewhere but just can’t figure it out or where. I am in the mood to type now and I am on a roll. [actually I have no idea what it means .. hahahaha]

Anyway, I just finished story telling you all about how life can be shorter just by you yourself own choice. If that guy not in a hurry, he probably still alive or at least not handicapped by his own mistake or the other word that others like to use, *stupe* Read the rest of this entry »